Beginning of the end

Wow... It has been a very long time and I now have even more questions than I know what to do with, yet oddly enough I have this unsettling feeling that I know the answers to every inquisition I hold... It is no longer the entity "SlenderMan" that I fear... Within the past four years I have realized that we may very well share a lot in common. Since the beginning I have felt different, something is wrong with me, I am not like the others who walk the day so freely, thinking that they are in full safety due to what they perceive as "Reality". I have always been able to see more... Feel more... Be scared of more... They hear a bump in the night, spot somthing moving in the dark when they are home alone, they feel fear but do not know why, because there is no such things as monsters to them. Well, i do not have the leisure of thinking such things. For I know the monsters that most think are all in their heads are all to real... And to those creatures, i am something in the way. I am one against many... And in my naive earlier years I thought all this time the one trying to help me was out to get me. Those years, those nightmares, those long nights in bed, staring at the darkness out my window knowing something was staring back... Those days were only the beginning to the end of my days walking as a " normal person". This is the end of Cody Jackson, and the beginning of something more.

The madness

Can't tell what's real anymore, seeing things, horrible things... Things that are horrifying some times and just odd at other times. Nothing makes sense anymore, my friends gonna try and help me. Hope he cane because reality and madness are blending together, creating a twisted world where everything's real but at the same time nothing is true. Cant trust what I see and hear. Locked myself in my room, sneaking out tonight. Family dose not even notice something is wrong. They thought therapy fixed it all, not at all true! Going to get the help my friend can give me... Hope it works, hope it's not drugs
Why won't he just leave, why is the slenderman after me... What did I do, when I can muster enough strength and get my mind straight I am going to end him!

Broken

Sorr, I pods been broke, I been doing the blog on my iPods Internet. Not much is new, again he toys with me, now I wake up when he's near, he lets me know somehow. He's slowly creating a hell in my mind and letting it out through madness, not sure how long I can stay ok... Please, someone help

Therapy's a bitch

Sorry I haven't been posting much, i'v been sent to therapy to help with "the mental problem I face because I saw my father die.", fucking therapist, there's a fucking monster stalking me and my friends and he thinks I'm hallucinating because of "repressed stress and guilt from my fathers untimely death", bitch that was 2 fucking years ago, ya I was sad but I'm not fucking hallucinating.... Am I?... No I can't be, there's no way... No I'm not, I KNOW I'm not! Fucking therapist is making me think I'm insane, gonna stop going, pay him and tell him to leave me the fuck alone. Sorry for my language I'm just... Idk just not in the best of moods I guess.

Today

Today was mostly normal, went to woods and found something disturbing, dont even wanna talk about it. To gross, to disturbing and... It was a horribly torn apart body, enough said.... It was unearthly torn apart, it made me feel uneasy and it was a human. Of course I ran away but I had to go back, when I did the body wasn't there, no trace or sign it ever was there.... That unnerved me even more...

MarbleHornets

I asked my friend a cupple days ago if there was anything on YouTube I could use for my "Slenderman Project"(had to lie, I don't want many of my friends getting deeply involved in this) and he said "Watch the MarbleHornets Entry's, they might help alot"
They kind of did, I spent all afternoon Friday watching them, all day saterday till I went to a costum party at 6:30 PM, at the party I swear I saw a guy in a mask like "Masky's" from the MarbleHornets entry's, I looked around then pushed through the crowd to confront him but my Girlfriend pulled me away and he took his opertunity to leave, i don't know what it means but I'm really scared now and I don't know who to trust.... All I can trust is this blog... I hope more people will read this to help. Maybe the person in the mask was just someone who could only throw together a quick costume and only had enough time to buy the mask, it was a costume only party. I hope I'm right

sorry

sorry i been gone so long, just enjoying the quiet normal life..... till today. i walked into school but herd a little girls laugh, i turn and look at the woods behind my school and in a tree i thought i saw him, then i hear the laughter next to me, i turn and there's only a tree. but on the tree i think i saw a quickly drawn circle with a X through it, he was just toying with me, giving me false hope..... damn him.... damn him